Historically, many people have benefited off of the idea that we cannot have a direct #spiritual experience. If someone can DIY connecting with spirit, than why would they need those in #religious power? ⠀
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But we can. ('Tis kinda the only way, really. Others can only point.)⠀
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Also, you don't have to believe in "God" to have one. I do think that there's a divine creative energy, and that's what feels so good about these experiences; but thinking of it as an impersonal energetic force integrated into all of experience works too. (Kinda like "the" force, eh?)⠀
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#spirituality #religion #god #spirit #sourceenergy #starwars #theforce #energy #particlephysics #sundaythoughts #sundayvibes #sundayfeels #sunday #spiritualgangster #philosophy
I’m still resisting my “do whatever you feel like” time-spending freelance strategy, despite things still going quite well productivity-wise. I’m starting to truly accept that I have a lot of will to work, and if I nurture myself when I don’t have it (rather than pushing through/trying anyways), then when it returns I’m a flow-accessing-creativity-machine.
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But this sleeping in my body is so keen on, ughhh. My whole life I’ve been prone to staying up late and sleeping in, and in addition to my liking daylight — others often make a lot of crummy assumptions about night owls. Lazy. Scattered. Intoxicated. Disheveled. Irrelevant. (Also things chronic illness can enhance your rep for...)
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I’ve been trying to train myself to fall asleep before 1 or 2 for a looooong time; TV off at 9pm, exercises commence by 10pm, must lie down by 11pm!! But then I just lie there for 2-3 hours, and wind up having to sleep in anyways — or force myself awake earlier and pass out by 2pm. (Yesterday.)
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My name is Meg and I‘m a late ass sleeper. And it takes me hours after waking to actually feel awake. If you once paid me to work before 10am, I was just staring at my computer screen, willing the cobwebs out of my head for the first couple hours of the day. Sorry, I really was trying. Apparently that’s just not how I’m built. And that’s okay. And that’s okay. And that’s okay. (I’ll get there.)
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I posted about how I’m growing closer to myself as a child earlier this week, embracing my previously-smushed desires for purple hair and writing about spirituality. She also threw a WILD hissy fit every single night, insisting that she was meant to stay up late, that’s just how she was. (Except the time my parents tried to film my nightly meltdown; instead of tearing my room apart, per routine, I apparently sat there quietly. Reading books and patiently waiting to get sleepy.)
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I am a 36-year-old woman who still behaves like a teenager when it comes to sleep, #fuckfibro, but it really is okay. I was never really in step with society at large; as much as I wanted to be, that’s just not why I’m living this life. I’m meant to embrace my weirdness, and to help others do the same. 😴☀️
I was homeless, living in my 1993 Camry, for the first 7 months I lived in this area. I’d nearly died from B12 deficiency (because that can happen), and the trauma sent pretty rough undiagnosed fibromyalgia pain into full-on debilitating; so I was (and am) in a whole whoooole lot of pain, all over my body.
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So much pain, that when I got a comminuted (shattered) fracture in my foot — I walked on it for 10 days because the rest of my bod hurt worse, so I figured it was fine. It was a difficult time in every single sense of the word. (To be honest, I’m not sure how I made it to the other side.)
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To make matters worse, my car/home had a broken whooziwhatsit (🤷♀️), resulting in a sound like I’d intentionally removed my muffler to be a loud asshole. This is a really common practice of douchebaggery here; and I received many angry glares from pedestrians assuming I was party to it, which really bummed me out. The bum cherry on my bum sundae.
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But once in a while, someone’s glare would melt into a compassionate wave as they saw my apologetic gesture/face (and perhaps my obv not pimped out ride). I imagined they were thinking something akin to, “No worries, we’ve all been down and out — you’ll be back on your feet in no time!”
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It was such a tiny difference in a complete stranger’s energy towards me, but in such a fragile time it really made all the difference. It could result in my curled up in my backseat crying alone, or my optimistically eating gummy bears (mmmmiss you sugar) whilst telling myself I was still more abundant and blessed than most of the world’s citizens. Small things can be so very big, can’t they? ❤️
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📸: “Mood changing” lipstick is back, and it’s still a fab lip stain! (It’s green in the tube) @moodmatcher
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#kindnessismagic #kindness #kindnessiscontagious #kindnessiseverything #kindnessmatters #bekindalways #fridayfeels #fridayvibes #homeless #hardtimesdontlast #yougotthis #youcandoit #selfie #selfiee #lipstain #beauty #purplehair #haircolorideas #purplehairdontcare #perserverance #gratitude
Okay. So I want my bookbaby to be bestseller one day, and when I wrote the bulk of her (long before the election) I decided I'd better keep politics out of my social media; as I'd like the messages in my book to appeal to all kinds of folks, especially those who need a big dose of compassion.⠀
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I gave that up on Twitter long ago (because Twitter brings out my snowflake rage), and it's time to do it across the board because shit has reached WTF IS EVEN HAPPENING RIGHT NOW, IS IT 1950 AGAIN?! levels.⠀
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It's not okay to tell Americans to "go home." They are home, even if they're brown and capable of taking down a hateful Cheeto. It's not okay to rape people either, even if you're a big star and think pussy-grabbing is your right.⠀
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And 'alternative facts' aren't a fucking thing. Unless we're debating something intangible, there's facts and there's lies. When civil servants lie to their constituents, they are supposed to be punished – not throw themselves a parade estimated to cost us *92 million* dollars. ⠀
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I can't even bring myself to catch up on #HandmaidsTale because it's too real-life scary ATM. (I'm deflecting from my rather terrifying anger with a frothy-but-true joke here. I'm overwhelmed and spinning. Local politics must be the first step, right? What do we doooooooo???)⠀
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Sending so much love. All the love to all the people, even the scared bigoted ones who need it the most. May we all empower ourselves to create a world that doesn't have so many hurt people hurting others. ⠀
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Love love love love love,⠀
Meg⠀
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P.S. More love.⠀
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#WelcomeHomeIlhan #believewomen #wtfishappening #resist #compassion #politics #whatinthedamnhell #humanrights #refugeeswelcome #notmypresident #trump #trumpisracist #trumpisarapist #impeachnow #dumptrump #liarinchief #ally #equalrights #longbeachpolitics #longbeachcity #longbeach #lbc
I’ve been paying a lot of mind to my work habits this month, after losing a few days in a row to a just...inability to work. I don’t really mean healthwise, and not depression; mostly lots of trying but not producing results. I realized I wasted several (unpleasant) days that I could have been engaged in self care and/or fun. (So often “and.” ❤️)
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And I’m a freelance weed writer! The 9-5 does not appeal nor apply to me, so I decided to approach my work schedule with more of an intrinsically motivated approach. That is, do whatever I feel like doing. The idea was inspired from a @leeharrisenergy video, then I read it in #taoofpeace, and it was further echoed by @emotion.l.contagion introducing me to the similar concept of #kairos. (Okay life, I hear you!!)
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My wandering around the internet wandered right into my working today, and I didn’t even try. I found myself thinking, “Okay I’d really better get to work, it’s getting late,” but then I realized I was doing it already. I’ve got plenty of essays accepted and ready to write for my favorite cannabis publication (@leafly!) and a draft ready to go tomorrow to expand my bylines. My writing has been completed faster and it’s of great quality, lots of access to beloved #writersflow. I’m on budget, and I’ve had a blast.
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I’m gonna keep this up. It seems my favoritest spiritual teacher Lao Tzu’s observation on the matter is apt, “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.”
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📸: This is my new lil’ buddy, Grey Steel! Big thank you to @paxvapor for this quick replacement after my old one vaped no more one day (a day years after I bought her).
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#paxlife #pax #cannabiswriter #time #timemanagement #flow #freelance #freelancewriter #worksmarternotharder #cannabis #tao #taoism #laotzu #thursday #thursdaythoughts #thursdaymotivation #thursdayvibes #thursdayfeels
