I've been thinking about this #taoism concept a lot lately. Illness has forced me into creating a bit of a dream job schedule-wise (and in other wises too!), yet I've persisted in feeling bad for being unable to work normal-people hours.⠀
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Sometimes this guilt results in my pushing through and trying to work anyways, but persistence doesn't enable one to work well over immense pain and/or fibro fog; leading to not-great and/or not-much work actually being accomplished. A complete waste of time.⠀
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@emotion.l.contagion introduced me to a similar idea from the ancient Greeks, kairos, which means the right, critical, or opportune moment. M-F, 8-5 is not my opportune moment, not anything close. And that's okay.⠀
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This quote sums up a spiritual concept that says the most efficient way to spend your time is to look within, and do what you want to do; that this will lead to right action, the kind of work that doesn't feel like work and leads to fantastic results.⠀
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So I tested it. Not much got done for 1.5 days, not essay-writing, anyways — personal growth-y stuff and other writing — but not work that leads to an already agreed-upon paycheck. ⠀
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Then at around 10pm the second night, during the time I often just try not to cry from pain, I quite suddenly got up and wrote most of an essay — cause I felt like it. And it was good. And it happened so fast, so fun.⠀
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I've continued, with positive results! (Not a real shocker since I write about cannabis and adore it, of course I want to do it often.) There's plenty of time. Here's to being forced into a rather dreamy lifestyle!
#laotzu #taoism #time #rightaction #timemanagement #spoonie #spoonieproblems #cannabiswriter #freelancer #freelancewriter #writerslife #getigetit #grateful #gratitude #abundance
Ahhh, another satisfying day livin’ la vida Long Beach. (#dogsittinglife) I mostly worked, got to send off an essay about parents who meditate their chronic illnesses with cannabis — and, more specifically, the judgement they face and the harm it can do.
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It means a lot to me to be doing this kind of work, being sick forever is a dangerously misunderstood situation; to the point where many #spoonies just accept, “Ableds don’t get it.” Like, that’s that. Don’t waste your precious energy trying to explain the minor issue of your LIFE — just buck up and try not to whine (but not so little they start saying you’re faking). You really can’t win. Happy to be doing my part to change things.
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And, of course, my sweet little puppy dog friends are contributing to the lovely day. They’re asleep next to me and I just want to wake them up to tell them how cute they are, it’s really out of control. Hope your Thursday’s been thriving 😘
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#longbeach #lbc #rosiesdogbeach #cannabiswriter #spoonieproblems #spoonielife #spooniecommunity #medicalcannabis #cannabisheals #medicalcannabis #writersofinstagram #beach #longbeachlife #belmontshorelb #doglove #grateful #gratitude #abledsareweird #thursdaythoughts #thursdayvibes #thursdayfeels
Sometimes my mind still gets wrapped up in the "why me?" of it all — why did I have to get sick, why did my mom have to die, why did I have to be homeless, blah blah — but I genuinely believe this quote, which really helps. (#opioidofthemasses, eh?)⠀⠀
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I think of earth, this life, as a school; or a game that your soul learns a bunch from. I picked a hard level this life, that's all. (You know, for an American.) I'm all the wiser, and every new turn leaves me feeling weirdly prepared by the previous one. ⠀⠀
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No freakin' worries, man.⠀⠀
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#woowoo #spiritualgangster #consciousness #spirituality #reincarnation #spiritualawakening #wakethefuckup #victimmentality #personalgrowth #personaldevelopment #growth #lifeoflearning ⠀⠀
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Today was okay, I guess. Swoooon. (Like that gorgeous tree in the first pic 😍) I finally got to go Long Beach kayaking! I’ve suspected for some time that living on Naples Canals would be crazy-charming, and upon closer inspection: well, duh.
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I grew up in the Tongass National Rainforest, Juneau, Alaska; and though I do feel sorry for children who don’t know about wandering in the woods, this would be pretty darn sweet as well. We played “king of the (ice) hill” — well, they’ve got an inflatable version, last pic! Good to be a kid.
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Haha, or a me. Today I wrote about cannabis, met a friend to get some cannabis, went kayaking, sunned/read, got tacos, wrote about cannabis some more, and spoiled a couple of sweet puppy dogs along the way. I’m hanging with a couple Belmont Shore pups I’ve been sporadically dogsitting since spring before last, a real crazy time punctuated by visits of their sweet consistency. I do love them so.
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Grateful to that health (#fuckfibro) and weather finally lined up for my long-awaited kayaking adventure, a delightful intro indeed. Ah, wonderful day. 😘
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#belmontshore #lbc #longbeachcity #longbeach #longbeachlife #cannabiswriter #kayaking #cannabislover #summerisfinallyhere #iloveyousummer #grateful #gratitude #freelancewriter #freelancelife #napleslongbeach #writerlife #writerlifestyle #wednesdayvibes #wednesdaywords
